eskatological volumes

8.19.2003

 
08:23

friday night juile and i went over to calypso cafe and erin met us there. we all had had black bean salad which was kind of amusing. after that we ran to best buy and erin bought rushmore on dvd and some lione richie greatest hits which i was subjected to we listened to on the short trip back to the apt. we watched rushmore and talked for a bit and then she went on home. sat juile and i did a few things around the house and had erin come over a little after lunch time. we were all gonna hang out, but the plan was to watch a movie (at the theatre) and there was nothing out that i wanted to see. except freddy vs jason, and i don't think either of the ladies were big on that. but earlier that morning i'd decided to wipe my second machine clean and install debian on it, and i was still in the process of that. so i told them to go on and i'd just work on that. the short of that part of the story is that i couldn't get debian installed, most likely due to my mobo being weird/dead on that machine. so they came back after to movie but erin went to hang out with _another_ friend. julie and i just laid in bed and watched tv the rest of the night. sunday we got groceries early in the morning and pretty much called it a day at that point. we sat around all day and watched some tv here and there. oh, and we watched chamber of secrets right before bedtime as i was starting to get in a rather down mood.
and speaking of which, last week was kinda rough at work. not due to any real specific event(s) or anything..it just grated on me more. and this week tends to be going the same direction. i fear i'm gettin to the point of really not being able to take..or rather put up with the stress and the morons. or worse, i'm just _letting_ myself get to that point. i've still not been able to get ahold of the guy from teksystems since i take such a late lunch and work so late in the day. i'm really confused about all of that. i don't what will come of it..and the risk of the 6-7 month contract seems much smaller when i'm starting to feel this way about my current job..but it could be that i feel this way about my job now only due to the hope of another job coming my way. the light at the end of the tunnel making the rest of it look so dark. i just don't know where i actually stand at work, and i can't determine if i should stick it out there and try for something better there, or just go some other place. but i can't actually talk to anyone there about the other job offer, or i'll be put on the shit list i'm pretty sure.

music: coil - live two