eskatological volumes

12.16.2002

 
13:45

don't remember thurs night exactly. seems like julie came over. friday i had lunch with erin and julie at grin's, though i ate nothing there. friday night misty and erin came over and..well julie and i watched firely while they shopped at target, then we ate supper at camino real. then i went home to sparta. sat morning we sat around for a bit, got around to loading up the truck, got everything on there, and headed to nashville. ate at a place in woodbury called d.j.'s; it was pretty good. erm, we got stuck on I24 about 3 miles from my exit. bad wreck in the leftmost lane. finally got to the new apt, moved stuff in, set stuff up, and that was that. pretty much. we came back home but stopped in m'boro to shop for a little bit. sunday i took pop out to breakfast; i was suppose to buy lunch on saturday, but i forgot my wallet. pop and i went to wal-mart for some shopping and came back home. shortly after that i headed back to nashville. julie came over and i kinda needed/wanted to do some shopping, but was too tired and julie didn't want to go really. so she read some harry potter and left around 11 or so.
hasn't seem to been many job posting since i started looking, but it's a bit close to the xmas season, so i hope that's the only reason for the delay. haven't gotten any solid respones back on anything.
realized fri night and saturday that i'm just too emotionally tired to..act properly. i just feel spent. i can't help but be/feel raw. like i don't have enough strength to put on any semblance of a nice face or decent attitude towards anyone. which causes me to just be a bubbling cauldron of emotion blinding reacting to whatever happens. it mostly boils down to me being rude to ppl that i don't mean to be.