eskatological volumes

12.20.2005

 
22:32

i had an odd thought while reading an email from a friend tonight. i've never been dumped in a relationship. i don't say that to be boastful. just an observation.
i was close friends with a girl or two before julie, then there was julie, and that was it. most of the negative feelings and thoughts i have about myself, have come from myself and not directly from others. i've punished myself with what i thought other girls thought of me, and not what was real.
i'm not getting this out in words exactly as it's running through my head...
oh well

just for shits and giggles, i'm going to do that old meme where you open up your mp3 playlist and post the first 10 plays:

underworld - dark and long 7" single edit
kid606 - sonqizzover
coil - teenage lightning 1
bladerunner sndtrk - i dreamt music (alternate love theme)
her space holiday - my girlfriend's boyfriend (broken spindles remix)
johnny cash - the old account was settled long ago
led zeppelin - traveling riverside blues
ghost in the shell - SAC - music archive sound files - stacompos2.dnb sanodg mix
front 242 - hymn
beck - cold brains

and here's a link to my full playlist right now.