eskatological volumes

6.23.2004

 
19:57

tomorrow will be the last day i see my boss. most ppl would be happy with that news regarding their boss, but i really don't want her to go. she's the best boss i've ever had and just a good honest person beyond that. she's taken the time to get to know and understand me; she's given me chances and allowed me to expand myself when no other boss i've had has done that for me. she's one of the rare mangers you have where you _want_ to work hard for them. where you really feel that you're creating something and can see the hard work you put in coming back out and benefiting you and others there. she has stuck up for me many times and for our team and dept as a whole as well. i've learned more in my year there with her than i have at all my other helpdesk jobs. and i really fear the cultural shift that will come as a result of her leaving. she tries to tell us team leads that she doesn't even do much these days and how she's let everything she does fall down to us so we can run the place...but there's no denying she fucking makes that place work. and filing her position with a figurehead 'professional manger' is just going to degrade the leverage we have on the playing field there. and somewhat on that note, i'm rather surprised by the number of ppl in our dept that have come to me and been surprised that i'm not getting our boss' position and how they feel that i should. and more so than they 'feel' that i should, they want me to replace her. not that they didn't like her, but that i'm more than a worthy candidate to fill that position. maybe they're just kissing ass in case it does happen, but it's just come as a bit of a shock to me. but as i've mentioned before, i don't think the odds of that happening are very good at all by this point.

but with all my thoughts on work lately, it's not really sunk in that i'm going to see skinny puppy this friday. but all i can think about is that i'm going to have to be 'sick' on that day, which is my boss' last day at work. and that i won't get to see her then.

music: her space holiday - my girlfriend's boyfriend