eskatological volumes

2.14.2004

 
12:42

this may sound like i'm depressed, but i don't think i am.
it's very tiring to go on realizing how many shortcomings i have, and that i'll never be better than what i am now. only enough vision to see how small and wrong i am. i do try to improve things, but i'm not real sure how to go about that for sure. and things always seem to fail. but by improving, am i changing the person i am? for the better perhaps, but does that disrespect who i really am? invalidate my own existance in a way...i dunno.

music: radiohead - myxamatosis