eskatological volumes

9.30.2002

 
09:01

julie and i ate some red beans and rice friday night and watched firefly. the she read some harry potter. saturday i helped replace my mom's work computer and then went to play dnd. it was fun as usual; good to be back with the guys and hang out. being a dork. sunday i helped fix my mom's boss' home computer. at his house. had lunch, came back through m'boro to see julie. i left a bir earlier than i had to cause julie and i didn't seem to have much to say and i was sleepy. but after leaving i felt incredibly guilty for leaving. i had to call her on the other side of m'boro and tell her i felt like crap. she said it was fine that i left (as i'm sure she wanted to watch the alias premeire more anyway) but i still felt upset by it. for some fucking reason. so i get here and i'm all angry/guilty and feeling crummy. i think the weird way i've been feeling..well for the past week or two, none of it has been bad. i've felt weird and thinking about and feeling ways that i use to feel..but i never felt bad. now i do. i wish i knew why this was.
doug got back last night. he called me and talked to me for an hour or so. was rather nice to know he was back and safe.
erin and misty are in town this week i think. they'll prolly want to do something one night, but i'm not sure if i'll go this time around as i'm feeling weird. may be best if stay away from ppl. or maybe it'd be better if i was around ppl. *sigh* fuck if i know.
well, i need to go to work now. *whee*