eskatological volumes

1.16.2002

 
23:05

pretty crummy day. finally got the 401k check crap sussed out yesterday and today i get an email saying i'm not getting the job at arts uniq. no specific reason was given...mom says the shows aren't doing so hot, so i guess they can't exactly afford me. so now my only ongoing hope is with vandy, which seems pretty slim right now; one job and they've already intervied 8 ppl. enigma says they're gonna interview till the..um...23rd..24th..something like that. so i may at least get a chance.
bleh. i let myself think i had that job at arts uniq and now that i don't i'm a bit more down about it than i should be. i never wanted to be out this long. it feels embarrassing now that i'm actually looking and keeping having to tell ppl, 'no, i don't have a job yet.' and i'm sure it makes julie happy that she's marrying the uber-bum.
stuff like this makes me feel so little and worthless.

suppose to go check two wedding spots friday with julie.
not sure about my weekend.

music: radiohead - prove yourself (mp3s)